Carolina Girl (Best in the World)

9:45am: there's a warm wind blowing and the stars are out
hello yeah it's been a while... haha, i should write this completely in song lyrics! that would be great... anyway, we are still on spring break, so i get to go to the beach. yess. pretty exciting, that is. and CHRISTINE is probably going to come! doubles the excitement. just got back from a college trip. i LOVED wake forest. i might go there. and i loved duke, too, but i can't see myself going there. i did NOT like uva. boo. anyway, i was just thinking- we've only run one track meet! that's not good! and all the sprinters are so out of shape... grr. ok, well, this is boring and short. i have to pack, still. and we are leaving in an hour. haha. oh, at uva, we had a very, very gay tour guide. "hi, i'm adam, and i'm a third year. if you'll hold on just a sec, i'll show you around the grounds!" oh it was great.

ps: happy easter!

10:04pm: everything but the instruction manual
so it's sunday, and i should be at the flogging molly concert, but noooo, i have two tests tomorrow, and plus, it might snow.  grr.  thanks, mom.  i dont even get to watch the oscars!  what a boring night.  but the weekend was mucho mucho fun.  friday night rocked, the bcats were fun, as usual, and today i got most valuable runner for indoor track, along with the rest of the 4x4!  yay!  so that was pretty good.  now i'm just putting off these stupid papers...  anything else?  no, not really.  phone bill's down- i guess that's a good thing.  pineapple's good- yum.  million dollar baby is such a good movie, it should win everything it's up for just because it's so good.  i cried a lot.  embarrassing.  but not really, because it's that kind of movie.  and if my family does not stop comparing leonardo dicaprio to certain ex-boyfriends i will knock them all out with a container of cottage cheese.  "the similarity's through the eyes and the nose..."  honestly.  leave it alone, mom.  we're not getting back together.  and maggie- get over it!  anyway, that was off-topic.  alicia and stine and john, hope you're having fun at fm.  also, hope you don't lose your shoes moshing and that you pick up loads of chicks to the latter.  quotes of the day: "oh, it's the academy awards...  i thought it was the oscars!" and "i don't want your fried rice."  quote of yesterday: "your mom's in japan and your dad's in england?" when what was said was "my mom's out of town and my dad's at a meeting."  hahaha.  i know such funny, funny people.  OH- 4x2 (current): we should sabotage her.  i swear by the end of the season i'll be known as the biggest bitch on the team...  but she'll deserve it.  probably.  veronica- good luck with yao.  i don't really know what to say, because obviously i've never been in a situation quite like that, but...  i'm sure it'll work out.  things always do.  wow, i called you veronica.  interesting.  now i'm just rambling...  i've gotta go.  well, i don't have to, but i'm going to.  ciao.

12:23pm: we did it ladies!
wow the 4x4 did awesome!  we brought our time down 10 seconds from the last time we ran at UNC!  and after just hanging out all day, too...  we saw a UNC lax game, and a UNC baseball scrimmage and, of course, lots of running.  anyway, after we'd run, everyone left, but my dad wanted to see this guy they call white lighning run in the last heat of the last event, so we had to wait.  while we were waiting, my parents made friends with the harding principal and his wife, who coaches hurdles.  she was 6th in the olympic trials.  wow.  and he goes to all the track meets!  and he knows what events they all run!  unbelievable!  anyway, their 8th grade daughter got a letter from ohio state, and when the parents called to say she was only 13, the scout said that ohio had been watching her for two years.  they were scouting her when she was 11.  and her time would have beaten the winning time yesterday.  wow.  that's just...  amazing.  anyway...  what else?  the meet was kind of deja vu, but i got over it, thank god.  and...  yeah, i have to do my valentine's day project for english, and,wow, it's all ready 1:30.  grr.  anything else?  i don't know.  later...

8:41pm: when sorry sure as hell isn't good enough
i can honestly say right now...  well, actually, i have absolutely no idea what to say.  i've messed up...  practically everything, i guess, and that's a lot.  and just apologizing can't make this better- hell, i doubt you'd answer your phone if i called you.  i mean...  i'll probably leave a voicemail, an attempt, but you'll probably delete it before you even listen to it.  and...  you have a reason to.  i may have an excuse to act a little bitchy, but right now...  ok, i guess i am being psycho.  i'm not meaning to seem overprotective, if that's what it comes off as.  although i know for a fact that's what this is coming off as...  i'm sorry for everything.  i'm sorry, carolyn, and i'm sorry, aj, and i apologize to whoever else is getting involved in this, because it's not fair to involve anyone else.  and i'm sorry, andrew, for being a complete bitch.  more than sorry, but i don't really know how to say that.  you're not making a fool out of yourself- you never could- and i would never spit in your face, ever, and i hope you know that.  everything i said, to anyone, you have to know i didn't mean it.  i was hurting, and i know that's not really an excuse- it's not an excuse it's all- but it's all i have to say.  i know you're not into forgiving and forgetting, and i guess you can't, because what i've done these past couple of days really is inexcusably bad behavior, but...  i guess this has made you lose an incredible amount of respect for me, huh?  as much as i hate admitting it, i guess it should have.  looking back, i've lost respect for myself, and it's you i've been awful to.  i don't know that you're actually ever going to see this- i don't know that you're actually ever going to want to see this- but if you do, i just want you to know that i'm sorry.  i hope you can accept this apology- maybe that's a little arrogant.  i wish you could accept this apology.  and- if you can- i hope you can forgive me.  i'm so sorry, andrew.

1:30pm: look at me, look at me
today is sunday, february 6th. i was thinking last night... it's kind of hard to believe that two weeks ago, andrew was here. i mean... think about it. it's really weird and sort of awkward, and now he's kind of being a bitch. i know he's trying to get over me and move on, but seriously, does he have to start in on the poor girl the day after we break up?! plus, he's making a fool of himself! which, actually, is amusing. another thing- even if she did like him, he is on the rebound. idiot. i wish i was there, almost. well, if i was there, we wouldn't have broken up. but i mean, saying that we had, i could laugh at him. except right now i sort of want to spit in his face. scratch the sort of- i wish i was there so i COULD spit in his face. sorry- that's kind of vicious. no, why am i apologizing? anyway, i'd really like an explanation for why you did break up with me. actually, everyone i know would kind of like an explanation. so.... yeah. later!

7:22pm: you'll never get to heaven if you're scared of gettin' hiiiigh
that's one of the songs on my CD, and i love it.  i talked to him, told him some of that last entry, just not so vicious.  and...  well, it might end up one of those moody things, but at least right now, i can handle being friends with him.  i'm stable.  yay!  haha, i guess i'm on what you'd call the rebound now- i want a relationship.  well, not so much a relationship as...  i don't know, a fling, i guess.  i mean, basically any guy in the county's fair game...  another school's kid's stuff to someone like me.  so...  to a new, closer to home relationship with someone i have yet to meet!  cheers!

6:40pm: shattered- scratch that, I'M moving on, too
so, i just had my heart broken, for the first time in my life.  that last entry?  yeah, disregard that.  i may be still in love with the guy, but even i can see that what he did was sort of wrong, leading me on for that long (no, not months, but days and possibly weeks).  and how he's "moved on"...  god, he probably was considering breaking up when he was at my house!  dammit.  damn him.  that...  well, that's not a good thing, if he was considering it that weekend.  let's just leave it at that.  i haven't posted before now, so you've missed the grief of the past couple days, but i think i'm arriving at the anger stage.  just because it was long distance doesn't mean you have to concentrate your efforts so immediately short distance, and just because you've "moved on" doesn't mean you can disregard my feelings.  i gave him a lot, and isn't just like a guy to forget that immediately?  ugh...  wow, look at this.  i sound so...  i don't know, how to lose a guy in 10 days meets legally blonde meets two weeks' notice.  two weeks' notice- ha!  if only you'd given me that, andrew, i would be just as cool right now as you are.  probably...  maybe not, i don't know.  but you know what?  i will be FINE.  you hear that?  FINE.  FINE FINE FINE FINE and yes i'm saying it to you.  FINE is what i'll be.  now take that and translate it into your twenty-four thousand different accents...  man, i wish i did live in usc.  i'm itching for revenge right now.  check my profile for a personal ad campaign of my own...  ESPECIALLY GERMAN BOYS.  DOMINIK is the best name.  if you're GERMAN and DOMINIK i will give you EVERYTHING...  aww, and guess what, andrew?  because you broke up with me before i came up and finished our deal, you'll never know if i really was "uncharted territory."  pity you have such terrible timing, isn't it?

12:54pm: if i'm laughing i'm not crying
maybe that's a little melodramatic- right now i'm definitely happy.  anyway, we found out last night, right before practice, that we weren't going to clemson because of weather concerns.  i was crushed.  the one reason i couldn't go to PA no longer existed, and now i wouldn't have anything to take my mind off the dance, because i am definitely not in the mood to go anywhere tonight.  not to the concert, not to a movie, not even outside to make snow angels (yes it's snowing here!  it's spectacular!).  i'll probably read CitR today, maybe do some other homework, and i guess i have to run, and then i'm going to sleep- you can't be jealous when you're asleep, right?  anyway- i am much more cheered up now.  still not in the mood to do anything, but i'll be ok, because i have the absolute BEST boyfriend of all time.  he was tired at 10:00 and he stayed up until after 2:30 to talk to me because i was upset.  i love him so much- i seriously do.  and how could i not?  he actually made me happy again, and i still am.  we texted for about an hour this morning, too, which was great.  he's shoveling snow right now- we don't even bother doing that down here, because the roads are "bad" anyway, so you can't go anywhere even if your driveway is clear.  so back to the matter at hand- i am happy right now.  i don't even really remember where this HUGE shift in my mood occurred- i know it was when we were on the phone, but i don't remember what, exactly, it was that did it.  but now i know i'll be ok, because we're great.  other people, however...  oooohhhh.  i feel so bad, and i can't talk about it!  i'm being a bad friend about it, too.  i'm very sorry.  ah there is snow and ice outside- it's so cool!  i'm downloading music and drinking hot chocolate- what a great morning.  i only wish andrew would finish shoveling snow we could talk more, haha.  yay- here he is.  obviously i've been working on this for a while.  oh, and he's going to read "the tell-tale heart."  yay!  i'm such a nerd...  ok, well i think i'm going to take a shower and maybe start CitR.  grah, i don't want to- i had this glorious idea to reread OotP.  the dance will be over be the time i'm done, most definitely.  well, later.

6:21pm: conversations of the fu-lu variety
WOW.  this weekend was SUPERB.  haha...  good word, no?  anyway...  what a blast.  the meet, not so much.  the car ride was fun- thank goodness for that steelers blanket, we really got to sleep!!!!  the dance was ok, and the parking lot was fun- "are you from like wisconsin?"  and "congratulations, you now have herpes"...  ahhhh.  no STDs, i promise you!  anyway, watching lord of the rings was a good time...  such good background music...  ahem.  haha.  oh yeah, the bobcats game.  well, they lost, so i lost a bet.  oh well.  didn't really bother me that much...  and...  what else?  sunday night/monday morning was really bad, sorry i overreacted.  and monday sucked because i was so worried i'd screwed everything up...  but everything's better than ever now.  nyc-pittsburgh-duck (the beach and a candlelit limo)-maine, right?  yes!  umm...  today?  i was a little distracted all day.  the track meet wasn't bad, i actually ran really well in the 300.  so that was good.  ok, i have a bunch of homework, so i will t-t-y-l.  dinner calls!

7:30pm: TOMORROW!!!!
ahhhh i'm soooo excited!!!!  CANNOT WAIT FOR TOMORROW NIGHT!!!!  seriously...  i am so excited.  umm...  yeah, for all of you who doubt- i am so trustworthy.  that was directed to you, kessie (kessie... i love it).  and for the meet saturday...  wow i can't believe coach said all that stuff!  he was like, "and kt, you better be good...  go to bed early.  no late nights!"  ah it was so embarrassing, i was bright red.  anyway...  i hope christine's ok.  we're screwed if she's not.  what else...  not much.  THRILLED about this weekend.  :) :) :) :)

5:52pm: less than three days!!!!
yeah, look at the title...  anyway, track was great, i guess.  not really- i'm getting my cough again and i have a cold.  but practice was okay...  we had this really serious meeting at AP that all the sprinters were late to and got in trouble for.  that sucked.  and i'm not in the 200 at clemson, mack is...  that's sad.  ok, i have homework.  bye.

8:46pm: goin' to states baby!

yeah, we qualified for states.  it was awesome- the qualifying time is 4:36, and we ran 4:32.  hehe i'm so happy- we're the first relay team ever to qualify for the indoor state championships from school (as ali pointed out, we're the only relay team ever to run indoor track from our school...  but nobody needs to know that)!  so that was cool.  i ran really well, i felt really strong.  anyway- seven days!  well, like seven and four hours, but less than eight.  that means a week.  this is so awesome!!!!  i can't WAIT!  it's going to be spectacular.  i have yet to get a dress, though.  haha i should work on that.  oh- my hair's not red anymore.  i didn't put in the post-color shampoo stuff so the color washed out!  it's so sad!  what else, what else.  idk.  i'm going to go get in bed and study vocab, because i'm a really cool kid.  later gator...

ps: beach tomorrow!  w00t!

7:19pm: and every day is the BEST day ever
ANDREW CAN COME DOWN FOR SADIE!!!!  i am so beyond excited...  you have no idea.  :)  i am seriously so thrilled, i've told everyone i know already, haha.  well, four essays to write...  later

10:32pm: to the moon and back

what a fun, fun saturday.  i did not do a single thing all day long- did i even leave my room?  i didn't get out of bed 'till almost 1:00, even though around 10ish i talked to andrew for about half an hour.  then...  what did i do all day?  i have no idea.  watched loads of basketball, i know that- usc-georgia, georgia tech-uva, wake-clemson, bulls-celtics...  seriously, this is probably the tamest saturday anyone anywhere can brag of.  i didn't even leave my house except to go to church.  i mean, i'm sure a lot of people were in this weekend- but they were actually working on applications.  me?  nah- maybe tomorrow.  and maybe not.  tomorrow isn't going to be very fun, either.  i'm actually going have to work on apps, plus i have that running thing, plus i have math tutoring.  and then it's back to school...  that will be the 10th.  that will make this coming saturday the 15th.  that will make next saturday our sadie hawkins dance...  i won't even type down what i'm thinking- i'm too afraid to jinx it.  so let's just say it's also the chapel hill meet- i'm signed up to run the 300.  wow i am so out of my league...  no, positive thinking.  i am strong, stronger than i've ever been, and i'm ready to go fast.  yessss.  that's it exactly.  ok, well...  in a while, crocodiles.

ps: my head hurts.  :(

10:09pm: if you let him pay...
it's the weekend, thank god!  two days away from 500 people whining about APs...  yeah, it's a big deal, but nobody really cares what anyone else is doing- keep it to yourself!  ugh.  anyway...  saw ocean's twelve.  it was pretty good.  the people next to us were hysterical!  the woman was taking off her clothes continuously throughout the movie- her sweater, her jacket, her long-sleeved shirt…  and she was practically orgasmic; whenever she’d laugh, she’d make these noises…  talk about sexual sounds!  and her husband (boyfriend?) sure got a kick out of the movie.  his laugh was this terrible old man cough…  so humorous.  nothing much happened today, except for homeroom...  a certain someone told me OUT LOUD that "it would be fun to lose [her] virginity tonight."  hahahaha- i couldn't believe she said that!  i mean, maybe if i was her best friend, but i'm her homeroom confidant, and ewwwww- it is HER we are talking about!  disgusting...  so good luck with that, my friend.  actually, though...  well, never mind, i'm not going to get into that here.  oh, and ron- good luck in ronoake!  remember...  if you let him pay, you're a prostitute!!!!

7:12pm: suffocate-cut in half-chop to pieces-decapitate-grind (the confederacy)

wow.  why am i online?  i have so much work!  the english essay, the history test, the APES outline because we were talking and hadn't read...  ugh.  anyway, i got a 96 on my english exam!  yeah, that was good.  and then the definite highlight of my day was andrew saying he could come down for sadie...  followed by the definite low when he said it was a mistake, his dad's conference is two days before.  so i don't know what's going on there.  actually, though, track was great.  haha- i did the stupidest thing, though, something even stupider than dropping my phone in the ocean.  mackenzie said that she was about to get a charlie horse, and i was like, "oooh those are sooo painful i used to get them in ballet, when i went on releve (thats when you go on your toes)."  and then i, being completely retarded, DEMONSTRATE what used to give me the charlie horses.  and, of course, i get one.  AGONIZING pain, of course...  i had to sit back down twice.  then landi massaged my leg, which was just a little weird.  plus everyone was just standing in a circle staring, so it was pretty awkward.  but how thick can you get?  i have done some pretty stupid things these past few days...  and not even under the influence!  haha.  and...  what else?  i don't know, that's about it, i think...  yeah.  oh, the AP meeting.  gettin' a little stressed, because everyone else is taking five APs next year, but i don't know if i can even take three...  this is so sad.  i feel so stupid, now...  i mean, leek, my class buddy, will be taking five, because of math and science.  i can't take an AP math or an AP science, because i have to take just the honors classes that are required for graduation!  so i'm kind of stressing about that.  well...  i'm ending on a high-low note, because of all the sadie stuff.  wish me good luck with tomorrow...

ps: new phone, new phone!!!!  soooo excited...  i'm going to surprise andrew and call him from it.  ^_^

6:37pm: i don't forgive, i don't forget

wow.  umm...  yeah.  ok.  well...  ok can't talk about that, so let me just say instead that i got an A- in APES.  i had a 97 for second quarter!  i would have had a definite, high A if not for that stupid exam!  *deep breath*  sooo aggravating...  anyway, that class was weird today, seniors had their little talk, so it was just us four and albertson.  we had a tea party...  it was so odd!  she was making tea and then she's just like, "do any of you want tea?"  and so she pulls out this HUUUGE case of tea in EVERY flavor imaginable and we just sit down and have tea.  it seems weirder every time i think about it...

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ok, now i'm in a pretty bad mood, so enough in this.  i have homework to do...  yeah that's it.  tschau for now.

8:42pm: as the world turns (or maybe falls down)
so.  back to school today, which always sucks, because it's just so different for me than being out of school (if you're meant to you know what i mean).  plus my cell phone, as andrew said, "tasted the atlantic," so it's not functioning...  definitely not a good thing.  i haven't talked to andrew since...  well, i talked to him last night, but still.  i don't get to tonight, and that's annoying.  i'm working on my english essay, actually- so this is what it feels like to do schoolwork ahead of time.  it's just making me all nervous about word choice and stuff, though- i'll re-edit too much.  yeah, i'm a writing nerd.  anyway...  not in a talking mood, and i wanna watch TV, but there's no basketball on.  i loooove basketball.  and it's so addicting to watch- i couldn't make myself turn off the TV during the duke-clemson game last night.  not a good thing, because then i couldn't sleep, so i wasn't asleep before 2:00, simply because i was hyperactive.  and, i guess, nervous about school.  anyway all that is on was the sugar bowl (yes i know what that is now, haha, AND where it's played), and i don't like football.  well...  i don't not like it anymore, it's growing on me, actually, now that i rather understand it, but it's nowhere near as fun to watch as basketball.  plus i have that feeling like i'm forgetting to do something...  i don't know what it could be, i even read for history.  impressive, huh?  oh god- the AP meeting is wednesday.  that...  well, i don't know.  it's weird...  i'm really worried.  about a lot of stuff, i guess.  but AP selection already!?!?  i have no idea what classes i want to take next year!  ergh.  what else is bugging me?  i'm trying to figure it out...  school, as i said, was a shock, of course.  and i guess the usual LDR crap...  why did i capitalize that?  grr...  i kind of want to go to sleep, but i also want some cinnamon toast crunch and i want to take a shower and i kind of want to cry.  just one of those days, i guess.  i hate that...  oh, and joey can't take leek to sadie, because he got asked.  that's disappointing, i guess.  actually, not so much- what's disappointing is that i don't get a date and i have a boyfriend.  talk about aggravating and annoying and just overall BLAH.  hmm.  is that why i'm in a bad mood?  the sadie thing?  well that's stupid...  actually it's not, not really.  it's something important to me, so i guess i have a right to worry.  but enough about that, talking about is putting me in an even worse mood.  now, maybe talking to the boy himself would help things, but no.  virginiatech versus auburn, c'mon now!  that was sarcastic, sorry.  it's my fault we're not talking- we would get to talk tonight if i hadn't dropped my phone.  grah.  ok this is getting ridiculously redundant...  later.

9:15pm: confessions of an ugly stepsister

an addition to my last entry- definitely put MEG up there with my favorite cousins.  she just rocks my socks right off my feet.  umm...  yeah the title of this, definitely not true about moi.  it looks to be an interesting book.  but it's so not me, i'm a hot sexy beach goddess.  well, right now, i guess i'm a hot sexy snow bunny.  haha- i mean, the only reason andrew dates me is because i'm pretty, according to my mother.  hahahaha.  wow update on the megster- turtlenecks turn her on.  that's awesome.  i just like normal turn-ons like a guy who laughs, a guy with a hot body, nice eyes, and here my cousin is gettin' turned on by turtlenecks.  life's unfair.  hmm...  oh i want to fill out a survey!  yessss.

What is your name? Kati
Are you named after anyone? yea two different aunts
What's your screename? haha pick one i have about 15                                                                                                                 Would you name a child of yours after you? god no
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be? John Robert                                                                       If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?Liz                                                                                                                 Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly? haha with my last name                                             Would you drop your last name if you became famous? and lose the awesome heritage that goes with it?  hell no!
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Basics
Your gender: female
Straight/Gay/Bi: completely straight
Single? nooooo
If not, do you want to be? GOD NO
Birthdate: June 30
Your age: 16
Age you act: it varies, i guess like 2-4.  but older when im ooouuut.
Age you wish you were: 17
Your height: 5' 8" (maybe)
Eye color: blue-green kinda 
Happy with it? yeah i guess
Hair color: dark blonde
Happy with it? again i guess
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: hahahaha ambidexchopsticks!!!!
Your living arrangement: haha erin- im pretty much homeless right now...  my grandparents live in shelby                                                                                                                                                                                            Your family: is cool, sometimes
Have any pets? no
Whats your job? haha school or maybe classroom central
Piercings? only the ears
Tattoos? none ever
Obsessions? basically everything i dont hate
Addictions? yeah i have a few
Do you speak another language? ja, klar, ich spreche deutsch
Have a favorite quote? ahh too many to list...
Do you have a webpage? does this count?
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Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment? well im alive for lots of moments                                                                                                              Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? if theyre not fat animal rights activists (or turtles)
Do you have any secrets? many with different people but only a couple to myself
Do you hate yourself? not often
Do you like your handwriting? haha who doesnt love writing in hieroglyphics- and being told so!                                                         Do you have any bad habits? yeah im sure i do
What is the compliment you get from most people? it varies day to day
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? Confessions of a Teenage Lunatic                                                          What's your biggest fear? failure... or maybe success
Can you sing? haha about as well as an off-key parrot
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? no thats a little weird
Are you a loner? no                                                                                                                                                                            What are your #1 priorities in life? the people i care about and just keeping it together                                                                          If you were another person, would you be friends with you? of course
Are you a daredevil? hehe yeah i guess                                                                                                                                               Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? i wish my fingers were longer                                                                                   Are you passive or agressive? according to my psychologist mom, i'm passive-aggressive                                                                   Do you have a journal? ya ya                                                                                                                                                         What is your greatest strength and weakness? loyalty and stubborness, respectively
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? i dont know that i actually would
Do you think you are emotionally strong? definitely, whatever people think (they can't possibly know)                                                                                                                                                                                                Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? yeah, i dont really get regrets
Do you think life has been good so far? its pretty damn awesome                                                                                                    What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? "the soul of education is the education of the soul" hahahahaha                What do you like the most about your body? legs and arms
And least? shoulders
Do you think you are good looking? usually
Are you confident? if im in a good mood
What is the fictional character you are most like? kate sutton or any hopeless romantic in a comedy movie                                          Are you perceived wrongly? yeah i think so                                                                                                                                          -----------------------------------------------------------------------
Do You...
Smoke? never
Do drugs? never
Read the newspaper? occasionally
Pray? haha the joys of being catholic                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               Go to church? ugh every sunday                                                                                                                                                            Talk to strangers who IM you? generallly
Sleep with stuffed animals? when im depressed
Take walks in the rain? i looooove the rain
Talk to people even though you hate them? haha yeah im such a bitch
Drive? i have my permit...                                                                                                                                                                Like to drive fast? definitely                                                                                                                                                                   ----------------------------------------------------------------------
Would or have you ever?
Liked your voice? no
Hurt yourself? im too clumsy
Been out of the country? yepyep
Eaten something that made other people sick? yes
Been in love? yes its wonderful                                                                                                                                                           Done drugs? never
Gone skinny dipping? not as of yet
Had a medical emergency? seizure when i was two
Had surgery? no
Ran away from home? no surprisingly
Played strip poker? no
Gotten beaten up? no
Beaten someone up? not really
Been picked on? hahaha by the spice gang
Been on stage? yep i love it
Slept outdoors? yeah!!
Thought about suicide? speaking of which, did that guy whose picture is in the hall of our school kill himself?
Pulled an all nighter? loads of times
If yes, what is your record? not sleeping
Gone one day without food? doubtful very doubtful
Talked on the phone all night? again loads of times
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex? hmm
Slept all day? AGAIN loads of times
Killed someone? im just a regular ted
Made out with a stranger?  hehe... 
Had sex with a stranger? no
Thought you're going crazy? yeaaah
Kissed the same sex? no
Done anything sexual with the same sex? no
Been betrayed? yes ugh
Had a dream that came true? yes!!!! i love it when that happens
Broken the law? yeah
Met a famous person? haha ive met famous RUNNERS
Have you ever killed an animal by accident? a bat i think
On purpose? course not
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?  probably
Stolen anything? idk
Been on radio/tv? yeah
Been in a mosh-pit? idk
Had a nervous breakdown? haha like every day
Bungee jumped? no but maybe someday
Had a dream that kept coming back? not except the "nightmare" i had when i was like 7
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Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets? they say its pretty certain, right?
Miracles? possibly
Astrology? haha yes you know me and horoscopes
Magic? DUH havent you read harry potter
God? yeah i guess
Satan? yeah
Santa? haha nah just the "spirit of st. nicholas"
Ghosts? nah
Luck? yes, i dont have any
Love at first sight? lust, maybe; love, probably not
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)? idk sometimes
Witches? again- HARRY POTTER
Easter bunny? nah
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever? yes...
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow? probably
Do you wish on stars? and on turned-around necklaces, and on 11:11, and on... 
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? i guess
Do you think God has a gender? idk dont really care
Do you believe in organized religion? idk
Where do you think we go when we die? idk
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Love and all that...
Do you consider love a mistake? no not at all
What do you find romantic? mmmm basically anything hot or sweet
Turn-on? a guy who laughs a lot
Turn-off? fat people and hillbillies
First kiss? haha
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel? umm... maybe dinner but not a movie and definitely no good-night kiss
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going? yeah haha i guess
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out? um...i don't think i would feel comfortable doing that
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? ugh yes but it didnt work out AT ALL thank GOD
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? they should haha
What is best about the opposite sex? mmmm
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? theyre brats
What's the last present someone gave you? running watch!!!! 
Are you in love? ya :)
Do you consider your significant other hot? haha hes going to be an abercrombie model so watch out
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Who was the last person...
That haunted you? umm frank hahaha
You wanted to kill? my sister
That you laughed at? my other sister
That laughed at you? my dad
That turned you on? nathaniel haha youre so hot
You went shopping with? my dad.
That broke your heart? blah
To disappoint you? umm idk
To ask you out? andrew i think
To make you cry? umm idr
To brighten up your day? hahaha MEG of course
That you thought about? talkin to bragg right now
You saw a movie with? erin hahaha in the texas chainsaw theatre
You talked to on the phone? andrew
You talked to through IM/ICQ? talkin to bragg
You saw? erin
You lost? my grandma
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Right this moment...
Are you going out? blah to practice shortly
Will it be with your significant other? nah but WEDNESDAY 
Or some random person? haha yeah stine youre super-random
What are you wearing right now? jeans and a hoodie over this vicki c tank top lol
Body part you're touching right now: none, my hands are on the keyboard
What are you worried about right now? wrapping a certain someones present
What book are you reading? i think i will soon start confessions of an ugly stepsister
What's on your mousepad? the mouse
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: exhausted, lovey, headachey, exhilarated, bobkitteny
Are you bored? not really
Are you tired? rather exhausted, but not sleepy
Are you talking to anyone online? ya
Are you talking to anyone on the phone? no but i have to call stine soon
Are you lonely or content? content
Are you listening to music? christmas music of course

yeah, i'll just end this now.  but ooooh i get a bobcats jersey for xmas- hart #1!!!!  it's awesome.  tschau for now...

8:20pm: fresh meat